random-ness (;

today is a sickening day.

i woke up and had the “omgeee. lollipop is in singapore” feel. felt like when TANK came.

and then i realised i had no tickets.

and then i realised my perfect plan cldnt work anymore.

then everything just sucked.

cos then i realised i couldnt go and song ji also.

which means i will not be seeing them at all.

and so i was damn sad.

then i was left with listening to them over 933.

and i felt happy for that moment.

then i went to watch mfbbt. (DONG QU XIA PA ER SHAO!)

and i felt even better.

then i didnt want to stop.

so i want to watch yamapi.

and then i started messaging leng and sann.

and then i realised it all suckked all over againn.

and then i am still depressed.

then joanne said she cldnt get the DVDs.

which means i wun have the gong zuo zheng.

cos i am pretty sure that the cd shops wun have.

like the 2nd batch of dvds dont have.

YOU KNOW IT IS SO COOL THEIR DVD WAS SOLD OUT ON THE FIRST DAY OF RELEASE.

rahhhh.

LOLLIPOP! jiayou liu bang!!!

i really wanna see xiaoyu aoquan weilian wangzi ahwei xiaojie ANDY GE alot.

alot alot alot.

bleahh.

and xinying said “my cousins rock! :D” WHICH MEANS ME!

of course i rock.

rahh. and i just remembered. school is gonna start and i hvnt finished my work.

and everything is screwed up. i think my results will screw up too.

so if they really do, i’ll kill myself.

rahhhhhhhhhh.

lollipop tmrw.

and i still DONT HAVE A TICKET ):

it’s UNFAIR UNFAIR UNFAIR!

i have no money. i cant buy it from those pple selling it for damn high prices.

rawrrrrrrrr.

AJEKSHF ISOAHFAFJQKWJDW(@@@$

wth lahhh!

i really dont want to do anything tmrw.

i dont want training.

i dont want to go out.

i just want to stay at homeee.

since i cant get my lollipop.

i totally cant believe i am tearing now luhh

stupidstupidstupid.

my only hope now is i-weekly.

but the chances are like 0.000000000001%.

howwww ):

well. at least joanne’s helping me get the DVD.

but stilllllll.

wangzi xiaoyu aoquan weilian xiaojie ahwei.

lauren loves you people. alot.

jiayouuuu.

and when chalet day comes. and i see xinying and all my cousins again. i hope i’ll be ok.

i feel like an idiot.

one in howw many. rahhh ):

rawwrrrrrr. I WANT TO WIN LOLLIPOP TICKETS! and I WANT LOLLIPOP TO HAVE EVENTS WHICH I CAN GO FOR! and I WANT TO SEE MY LOLLIPOP! ALL 6 OF THEM!

WANGZI XIAOYU AOQUAN XIAOJIE WEILIAN AHWEI

rahhh! unfair treatment. they are likee FINALLY coming to singapore and then they give me hope and now they dont tell me their events ): rahhhhhh. I WANT THE TICKETS! REALLY BADLY!

and kind person want to help me win tickets? i’ll really love you alot alot!

and and and, YOGA tomorrow (:

but i got NO money. but i STILL want YOGA and LOLLIPOP concert DVD. but i am still upset they removed michael! and the opening. and YES. and DUI NI AI BU WAN! rahh. and i hope the part where they read the letter is still thereeee. bleahhhhs.

youjiaa is pro-ed (:

LOVES

and rahhhh. lollipop will only reach sg on 12th ): bleahhhhhs.

go to val’s or marilyn’s or bernard’s blog for details.

lazy to write anything. just wanna sleep.

waahhaha. i slept for 12 hours

sleeping is good for health

counting down to many many days!

3/6 - linyoujia’s album release

6/6 - bbt concert dvd release  (but rawrrr. disappointed.  why the hell did they cut of the kai chang wu, aoquan’s michael dance, wangzi’s ai bu wan, wei’s piano part.)

11/6 - bbt arrives in sg (:

12/6 - qian chang at lunar @ clarke quay 3pm. (i hope i get the tickets.)

sometime in july - derrick’s album

sometime in june or july - xiao jing teng’s album. (i heard one of the songs on 933 alr. nt bad i guess)

rahh. why must aoquan go army nowww ): bleahhs. but nvm, i shall remain loyal. just like how i am so loyal to derrick and nooo, huang jing lun has to stayyy ): or else i wun want to watch alr lahh. he is damn cute can!

hua xin wants to go and sleep alr! but before that she wants to say that she still loves lollipop and eastyle and xingguangyiban and TANKKK and yuzhong and JJ and mike he and chen chu he and fang da tong and ladeedadada. cute guys are cutee ((:

i shall be nice and do the xinying quiz thingy but i still have no idea how to do it.

 Do you wished to get married?
not now =.=
2. What do you want the most now?
stop studying! slack at home! watch cute guys! watch lollipop! watch 9 10 14 play ball! wahh.
3. Who is the person you trust most?
myself.
4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
No. Haha!
5. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
good results w/o studying; WANGZI! NUMBER 9 AND 10! ANY OF THE PPLE IN MY LONG LONG LIST
6. Are you satisfied with youself?
I guess so.
7. What are you afraid to lose now?
sight. hearing.
8. Do you believe in eternal love?
nt sure.
9. What would you do if HE/SHE hugged you ?
FREAK OUT [in the good way]((:
10. What do you like most about yourself?
nothing. i suck.
11. What kind of people do you hate?
the kind of pple who are like me.
12. What feelings do you hate the most?
feeling lost
13. Do you trust every friendship of yours?
i dun think so?
14. Do you treasure your family?
Yes.
15. What is the most important thing in your life?
cute guys. money. songs. people around.
16. What do you regret most in your life now?
going to nj.
17. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
My family, my friends
18. Are you happy now?
not exactly.
19. What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends’ eyes?
a not lousy friend.
20. Would you do something (that you have always been afraid of) if the person you love asked you to do so.
Depends luhh. bu ke yi shang tian hai li, wei bei liang xin…. (:

i want to watch tuesday and thursday’s gameee! but rawr. why my papers dont end?! so sian diaoo. i want to watchhhhh. tj-vj; hc-aj! rawrrr! the games are gonna be niceee lahhh. bleahhh. screw the papers luhh. wahhh. I WANT TO WATCH! and the girls vj-sa; rj-hc! bleahhhhs. LAUREN WANTS TO WATCH THE GAMEEEE.

and xinying, your quiz will HAVE TO WAIT (:

and my BANGBANGTANG is coming to SINGAPORE ((: WANGZII XIAOYU AOQUAN AHWEI XIAOJIE WEILIAN

june is a happy month! (X and i will see GREEEEEENNNN after a long long time ((: she better not ps me. bahh.

whoaaaaa. yanming’s comment on redsports so cool (:

Yanming(AJC) on May 17th, 2008 9:06 pm

just finished reading chung wayway’s post. [heh. i am so used to calling her that now].
damn sweet.

anyways, cause i dont think i will have timeee to write indiv letters, i am just gonna do shoutouts here. but well, i think that no one is gonna read it. but heckkk.

first, i really want to thank the team. and i am gonna miss the idiot j2s alot alot - jieqilingyifangyuvalerie. every single one of them. though i admit that there was a pt of time i really eeked out cos of trg. feelings.

i cant believe it, but when i think about it, i realised that my happy times in nj were all cos of bball. even if there were sad/pissifying/grr-ed times. i dunno. it just felt like 2G? or even better? 留下来的人往往比走的人痛苦. perhaps it is true bah. you see everyone leave. and you are just stuck there. i dunno. the mg thing nvr happened to me. i guess that’s good? escape?

everytime i see them, it feels weird. like today. when jieqi appeared during trg. it didnt feel right. or when they are not around, it just feels empty. funny.

but anyways, i really regret alot alot of things. only cos i was an idiot. not going for chalet. not warming up the last game. not training my hardest. not going out cos of money. not enjoying training. not mixing ard with them…idiot.

truth is, sometimes i really xian mu marilyn for being able to mix ard with them so well. i dunno, maybe it’s just me. time.

the times sushi-ing, kbox-ing, sleeping, dinner-ing, lunch-ing, gym-ing, shooting, ball-ing, skipping, party-ing, birthday-ing, annoying, toilet-ing, drinking, piano-ing, cai fan-ing, pizza-ing, holiday-ing, malaysia-ing, taupok-ing, sms-ing, training, radio-ing, track-ing, icecream-ing, movie-ing, fried food-ing…missing.

i remember saying that my cds are more impt than them. change it to, they are equally impt. alot had happened. alot alot. from one year ago when we were deciding the exco. the very long interview session. to the time when me and marilyn didnt talk. to the time when everything became fine again. to the time they spent at the chalet. to the time when track started. to the time when the holidays finally came. to the time when there was gym/track/double training. to the time when me and val were happy to go on holiday. to the time when school finally reopened. to the time when we were looking for “someone shorter than jieqi”. to the malaysia times. to the friendly games. to the injury time. to the time when we finally had a team. to the seasons. to the time when everything ended. [to those who doesnt know, basically means the time from TANK to xing guang 4 shao, to lollipop] 1whole year. alot.

really want to thank them alot alot. for the short/sweet smses. for the wunnerful time. for the vry useful/inspirational encouragements and words. for the funniest jokes. for the crap. for the grandstand times. thanks.

jieqi. the shortest and blackest captain. where can i find another one? her black, serious face. it just means stress. but i guess i am gonna miss the stress. the team talks. the ones she is so afraid of [cos she dunno what to say.] some things may seem funny, insignificant. but motivational. some smses may not mean alot to her, but really. they hit me hard. esp. her recent very sentimental one.
thanks, for getting me to talk to marilyn.
thanks, for being understanding.
thanks, for listening to me crap.
thanks, for the very nice smses and team talk.
thanks, for the trainings and effort you put in for us.
thanks, for the many smses you used up.
thanks, for the encouragement you have given.
thanks, for the time.
thanks, for letting me annoy you.
thanks, for the “it’s the memories that count.”
thanks, for the tears.
thanks, for the wunnerful captain you have been.

sorry, for not giving my best during trainings.
sorry, for actually thinking of giving up.
sorry, for not treasuring the time.
sorry, for being a stoopid and idiotic teammate.

“jieqi!”"做什么?”"叫爽的.” [i am so gonna miss this.]

lingyi. though i admit that there were times i was freaked out, annoyed, i know it’s for the team. i took long to understand. far too long. training when she was injured, sick. being high at the grandstand. all just because she wanted to play hard for the team. truth is, i didnt know alot. motivating team talks. the confidence she had in us…
thanks, for the laughter you gave.
thanks, for the many sacrifices you made.
thanks, for training so hard.
thanks, for the barbeque session at your house.
thanks, for showing that nothing can stop you from training.
thanks, for planning the sabo-jieqi sessions.
thanks, for the many smses you sent.
thanks, for planning so much so much.
thanks, for showing me that there is no impossible.
thanks, for being the pia-est vice captain.

sorry, for misunderstanding.
sorry, for not training even though i know i could.
sorry, for not caring.
sorry, for thinking you are weird.
sorry, for being a self-centred person.

fangyu. i remember. there was a post on her blog. me, marilyn, gayle freaked out. i have to say, we grew closer. she boxed out like no one’s business, caught rebounds, learnt centre moves. alot of the time, i didnt understand what she was thinking. even when i didnt know what to do, what we are supposed to do during trainings, she tried to help. in whatever way she could. her smses.
thanks, for the bball blog.
thanks, for the many pictures, for capturing time spent tgthr.
thanks, for studying hard so that you can train.
thanks, for chasing me so hard, getting me to pay basketball fund.
thanks, for the passion burning in you.
thanks, for the many quarrels you had.
thanks, for the effort you put in.
thanks, for the tears.
thanks, for the time out together.
thanks, for the showing you care.
thanks, for showing nothing can bring you down.
thanks, for being fangyu.

sorry, for zoning out sometimes.
sorry, for leaving early when you were down.
sorry, for not trying to understand you better.
sorry, for being insensitive.

valerie. my neutral idiot. she comes up with alot of random stuff that gets herself into trouble. like “no means no problem.” rubbish. i dont know since when i started talking to her alot. i didnt know her last year. cant remember. maybe it was the holidays. i never knew, she missed us so much. the very random things she do. i am gonna miss her. and her stupid egoism.
thanks, for helping me find cute guys.
thanks, for listening to “NOISE”.
thanks, for missing us.
thanks, for running home aftr trg with me.
thanks, for the laughter.
thanks, for your randomness.
thanks, for your paper.
thanks, for counting the attendance.
thanks, for spending the time with us.
thanks, for pia-ing during track.
thanks, for trying to go high during trainings.
thanks, for the scoldings you got.
thanks, for the very no topic smses, predicting trainings.
thanks, for stoning at the grandstand.
thanks, for being a neutral idiot.

sorry, for annoying you.
sorry, for not knowing what to say that time you cried.
sorry, for being a not very neutral neutral idiot.

“CHUNG WAYWAY!”

the j1s have to wait till nxt year.

a new beginning. a new promise. promise to work hard. no matter what.

棒棒堂- 我們之間.
詞:棒棒堂(廖俊傑 - 小傑)

这一段时间 有着什么样的画面
喜怒哀乐全写在日记里面
发现 每一页全都是经典
所有故事都值得纪念
现实的考验 我们说好一起面对
不管多久多远绝对不喊累
期待 彼此更美好的明天
我们说好谁也不放弃谁
手牵着手(连成线 最紧密的圆圈)
肩靠肩(每一刻都好像在身边)
深呼吸 做你最高的堡垒
风吹过的海边
雨水下过的季节
让我好想念
我们之间不会有改变
相同的起点 一瞬间
变成了乐园
我们之间转了一大圈
相同的终点 会发现
所有的心愿 会实现

thanks gals.