WTH. WHO ARE YOU TO CALL ME A BITCH? WHO IS THE REAL BITCH HUH…YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO DO IT. WHO THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU ARE? WHAT GIVES YOU THE AUTHORITY TO DO THAT? YOU FREAK,,,,I TELL YOU YOU ARE ONE BIG FREAK WHO IS THE REAL BITCH, WHO GOES AROUND INSULTING PEOPLE JUST BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOU SUCK.

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whoots training today! sortuv improvised music into bball…with the rhtyhm and all…quite cool did shooting also…cant wait till saturday where training is at HOME U and there is alumni training too

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Kelly Clarkson Because Of You Lyrics

“Because Of You”

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

没错啊，就是因为某件事而让我开始不信任，开始不让别人踏入自己的生命。。。或许只有当事人才知道吧。因为就在事情发生后，自己才开始这一切。有或许，他根本就不知道。随便吧。。。一切都不重要了。当然，少不了自己的专属顾问（屁啊！）。。。在那段时期，就跟她说起了生命。说她不知，我才不信。因为她和我一样啊，没有信任。

gals played SR and guys played MI. congratz guys for winning MI you guys played great, from how you all were lagging behind by at least 8 points, to how so many of you fell down, to how you guys finally caught up by the 4th quarter, to how coach called for a time out 5 seconds before the game ended, to how tuo nan and mr sham were hugging each other when the game ended with NJ winning MI by a few points. whatever it is, the guys played a GOOD GAME…yeahh…i was really really touched by how they piaed all the way…and yeah i teared.. then the girls game…the score sucked, but no one gave up. and that is the most important. everyone piaed to the end of the game. no one gave up on each other. just look at the number of injuries, and yet we persevered to the end. with yifeng limping, shihui playing with a wrist injury and the 2nd half with a sprained ankle, lingyi with a knee and ankle injury, xinni with a knee injury, fangyu with an ankle injury etc. whatever it is, i know that we went all out. even if we didnt win, it doesnt matter. cos no one gave up. and everyone really piaed. there are still 4 games ahead of us. this is not going to affect us. the remaining 4 games would be played to the 150%. the remaining 4 games would be a game for us to enjoy. and yeah, i teared after the game, and during team talk…no matter what, we have tried and played well. rest well people. wednesday’s game…we’ll ENJOY and PLAY OUR BEST. jiayoujiayou!!!

walaueh. i cant believe it lahh…it just isnt right and it DOES NOT MAKE SENSE AT ALL. nopes i am NOT at all happy with the result. it really doesnt make sense. in terms of attendance AND results, i seriously dun think that it is the correct choice.look lah…even if it isnt him, why does it have to be him?!? there are SO MANY BETTER CHOICES. and i MEAN IT. grarhh. i hope that it is gonna be reconsidered. seriously.

went B&Js before training but queue too long so didnt get it in the end. oh wells. then after that trg was first warm ups then after that layup and then free throws and 4-on-4. my free throws suck….10 outta 51. shitt. and i really wanna tell lingyi and shihui that they REALLY DID IMPROVE ALOT!!!congratz people continue to jiayou yarh? then after training just went up to drink and talk…walau. i still very the bu shuang about the results.grarhhh.

and you: you think i am sucking up? fine think it anyway you want.cos i know i am NOT. look you told me to stop…but who is the one talking about it 24/7?!? what is it exactly that you want? i am sorry but i really think that your act cuteness SUCKS big time. i see alr i really very very very bu shuang. you try to get everyone’s attn…and you say i am doing it. please lahh look at who’s talking…you think that you are really cute? get a life please.i tell you…i am not the only one who thinks you are annoying acting cute. cos it is NOT AT ALL cute.

and to joshua: cheer up lah. cos i know that wtv you think is true is not. it is just wut you are thinking.

friday

had napfa….cos sham was so CONSIDERATE. oh wells, at least it is OVER my 2.4 sucked. real bad. oh wells…AND JIANMING IS SO ANNOYING. he so slack his timing still so pro. grarh him. before napfa had shooting drills…and  after napfa went adam’s food centre to makan. i left my wallet in class so had to rely on marilyn to buy me food. and pay for my bus fares. lol. but anyway sham had this thing about every table must have at least someone of opp sex. so me and marilyn same table is songyi beyondi vernon lijun and someone else…cant rmbr. then munkit was at first sitting diagonal from marilyn then songyi was in the way….then he was like kena sok dio.cos the dian bo too strong. lol. then vernon is damn lame lahh. walau eh…his jokes are like =.=….can fight marilyn liaox. then aftr makaning we just walked ard talk to pple…then I DIDNT KNOW I TALKED TO BERNARD!!! alamak. my memory is failing me. BAD. cos sham tested me abt him then i knew NOTHING. and he knew stuff abt me. oh wells. but sham forgot his punishment so heck. oh yeahh shd have seen jiahao and weiming’s faces when they heard marilyn talk abt ex and gf. lol. and jiahao is promoted to KING! lol. HIMBO KING. mwahaha. then after dinner we went coro ntuc…cos pple kena that thing so yeahh we were crowdin ard the pad section wondering what to buy then the guys walk past all had the look on their faces. FUNNY MAN. then went back to school and watched some film thing…slept halfway. sianx.

sat

when everyone woke up, pple were sleeping next to pads. LOL. thanks huh pad monsters.cos i LOST MY WALLET left my wallet under the table didnt go home u training with the gals. sianx. so i just went GO ask the person open the door to TC25 so that i can get my wallet back. then stoned at the grandstand and watched the guys train. then left to meet them at novena for lunch. anyways, SONGYI I AM NOT SLACK LAH.grarh. then after lunch just walked ard and slacked then went KAP go rent miracle and went back to school. pple played badminton while me and yifeng slept until kirana and fangyu appeared. then kirana listened to yifeng gossip and she got damn high. LOL. then the badminton pple came down and then we just talked until 6. waited for sham to appear then realised that sham not comin to train us cos raining at home u. so we train ourselves then after VERY SHORT WHILE STARTED RAINING. so we just waited and see what to do next…just talked. ard 8 sham then call xinni say we settle our own makan. so we makan at curry wok. then went ntuc again….then went back at ard 10.saw the guys (WHO CABBED BACK RICH PEOPLE) at main gate. then walked in…and kirana and winghan and yifeng and ade were laughing at marilyn abt M&Ms. hahah. then after that sham sprayed the ice thing on jiahao and munkit cos they injured. then he said this week got ice bath. hopefully i dun need cos i no play :\ then watched miracle and i fell asleep again lah. like duh rights? oh yeah and marilyn mistook alvin for lijun AGAIN.haha.

sun

the pad monsters woke up with ink on nails and face. LOL. morning short training. then nearly had training at home u at 12 but sham cancelled it cos everyone was doing work. so ard 1230 left nj then go makan then i just went home. yeahh.

camp RAWKED man. this kinduv messy and unplanned camp…i guess it appeals to me. i want camp AGAIN! anyways, TAKKAIRE PEOPLE!!!! seasons coming soon liaox. must take care….tc whichever guy injured; tc of yr knee xinni and lingyi; tc of yr ankle yifeng and fangyu; tc of yr finger shihui!!!must jiayoux and nj bball will CHIONG together yeah? jiayoujiayou!!!

training tone down liaos. seasons start friday…first gal game against SR at 3.20…guys against i can rmbr who at 2.10…. jiayou people! oh wells. i scared my fitness drop, but i guess now take the chance to train up my basics. yepps. jiayou people!!!! NI MEN KE YI DE!!!

today’s training was against guys. yepp…the guys damn funny larhh…the shortest one become centre. LOL.

away frm training, class matters. you know i really dun care if our class has MANY MANY conflicts. as in i rather be someone who ai hen fen ming than someone who is such a hypocrite. ming ming jiu tao yan ta gan ma hai zhuang zuo ta shi ni de peng you?!? i dun care if you guys think that i suck.hiding my hatred bu shi wo de zuo feng.

LoL…PRETTY FANGYU FOUND MY BLOG. LOL. hahahah. anyways, thanks to PRETTY FANGYU, i beat my PB and got new PB…12.33. still sucks as compared to marilyn’s 12.02 (WITH BACK PAIN LAHH HER)…but yeahh. thanks for TRYING to pace me! she was still too fast. LOL. but yeah…and napfa is pushed forward to thursday…doing with softballers and guys. AHHHH. i dun like running with the guys. so DEMORALISING! keep on lapping me. blahhh them. grarhhh…

LOL. adeline said she wasnt scary O.o if she isnt, no one is!!! HAHAHAH. okay nevermind. lolx…she not scary lahh. she just LOOKS scary…

and NO I DONT CRUSH YIFENG! how to crush her?!?! aiyoo….actually hors, the whole team pretty mahs…like jieqi and fangyu got the ou xiang ju face XD then ade is the smile sweet kind, then yifeng is her eyelashes long lorhh….then the rest is just the normal pretty…cannot describe de pretty, but still pretty lahhs…

HAHAHAHA. and the dieting is so dumb!!! but nvm! LOL…crapped alot lorhs…mr sham’s WEIRD questions O.o and our WEIRD ANSWERS. hahah. then go up canteen and crapped even more.

oh yeahhh, the ABCD game so DUMB LAHHS. walau. to think i so stupid go think abt it for so long. grarh me man. LOL. rest day tmrw…must yang shen then thursday can chiong and get another PB!!!! WHOOTS. jiayoux! oh yarhs, i just noticed that the only one in the team who is NOT injured is like aude and jieqi and geraldine…LOL. the rest my TAKE CARE ARHS PEOPLE!!!

hahahaha i guess eeleng is right when she said that my life revolves ard bball. but it’s alright cos bball RAWKS. so anyways, we ran as a team and yeah we DID improve! congratz shihui on hitting PB!!!! it was a REALLY good run! oh wells, i didnt hit PB but it’s alrights. and good run aude too!!!! really, the team spirit! we improved from the last time we ran as a team. and we NEARLY ran 2nd round of 2.4 but ended up doing 1 round. whoa, all of us did our best man. like yifeng got i think 1 minute? cool lahh. sham said she cant go join nationals alr!!! and erm i brok 130. yeahh! but really, it was a GOOD RUN!!!! jiayou nj bball! more pple joined us! yayyy!!! and then team talk, yeahh what they say is true lah. me and marilyn can train for 2 more years before gog on court. and yeahh, make good use of the 2 years! or lingyi will chop off my head. LOL.hmm, match against seniors, i think after a while everyone started slacking. lol. but yeahh, dun mind! cos together, we can scale to GREATER HEIGHTS!!!! and tc of your leg lingyi!!!! really. must tc lahh. or else later worsen even more sian rights? yeppx. and tc of your back marilyn!!!! then after snr match did some training. then the jnrs had to do 10 push ups saying “SENIORS ARE THE BEST” lol…paiseh for running so slowly :\\ then aftr that slacked at the grandstand and talk abt bball scandals. WHOA. bball team suddenly ALOT of scandals lorh. hahahah. and i mean ALOT. lol. quite cool! then they went for dinner. I WANNA GO TOO!!!!

oh yeahh, CAMP IS POSTPONED TO NEXT WEEK yayy!!! the stars damn nice i know jieqi wanna stargaze with someone arhs. lol.

hahaha geraldine said our trg very hiong. i guess it is, but it’s alrights! cos we WANT TO IMPROVE! and yeah, next week will be 2.4 EVERYDAY. jiayou!!! WE CAN DO IT!!! BREAK PB!!!! jiayoujiayou!!!

grarh. my 2.4 time trial today SUCKED. REAL BAD. oh wells…I LOVE TRAINING I LOVE THE TEAM, I LOVE THE GAME, I LOVE MY SENIORS, I LOVE MY TEAMMATES, I LOVE THE FAMILY oh wells…i guess i really CHEERED UP DURING TRAINING. all my emo thoughts were GONE i love you guys loads!!!! and i really really appreciate the time spent crapping and spreading scandals you guys rawk my life yeah? today kinduv slack training cos guys had match against NUS.training was really really fun :)) and then went for the usual drink then talk talk talk. yeahh, the culture i guess…i guess it’s the culture.and the fact that no one is really neglected that makes me love the team so much. i realised…they didnt neglect us. we just isolated ourselves. i know now thanks gals for EVERYTHING! and of cos the LEGENDARY COACH really really thankful for EVERYTHING. jiayous for tomorrow’s match against seniors yeah? jiayoujiayou!!! HAVE FAITH!

personal record. 12.50…no it isnt good enough…next target will be 1230. if yifeng can do a 1020, i can do a 1230! yes i CAN. anyways, CONGRATZ ADE FOR BREAKING 12! AND YIFENG AND JIEQI AND FANGYU FOR BREAKING 11!!!! and jiayou lingyi and shihui!!! WE CAN DO IT TOGETHER AND BRING NJ BBALL TO GREATER HEIGHTS

oh wells. got it from coach again…..after skipping. i guess we really pissed him off. paiseh coach. really, mind over matter!!! and yeahh, coach training tomorrow, I WILL JIAYOU!!! GO FOR TRAINING WITH A POSITIVE ATTITUDE yepps i will!!!!

 oh yeahh, i just realised that ade isnt that scary she’s actually super nice lahh yayy!!!

oh yeah, debrei, takecare of your leg yeah?

had yj match today. yeahh i didnt play. quite obv. hmm…yeahh i guess we were basically just too emotional during the match…always let emotions take over. but i think audelia’s steals were GOOD and the nice nice rebounds and intersections yifeng made! yeahh they were GOOD!!! continue jiayou-ing!!! really, you gals were GREAT!!! hope everyone is okay and wont be that affected by this match….we know that we CAN win. if we got in more open shots and layups! but it’s alright. we’ll continue training and continue jiayou ing! yeah. and the yjians were AGGRESSIVE and their offense were really dare dare kind! yeahh they were. but i guess that’s how it is? njians! LEARN TO BE MORE AGGRESSIVE!! yupps.oh wells, generally i still think that you gals did GOOD! and the guys too of course! all the nice intersections, rebounds and shots. they were really really nice! and i mean NICE! and yeah while they were playing match we did our zhan mas. hahahah. really mind-over-matter. LOL… and then team talk. jieqi eats so nicely huh/ lol. but yeahh. jiayou NJ BBALL!!!

really sinking into the NJ bball team! i dunno. i was really really emotional along with the rest of the team during the match. first quart i dunno why, i really felt like crying.

lol. my blog is becoming like maxine’s…training blog! but nevermind!

morning training today. LOL. i made such a good shot lahhs. good until the ball kena stuck up there. LOL. didnt do much for morning training i guess. but flex wasnt that good…like when we were doing offense, we couldnt get a single one in. yeahh that was about it for morning training. then when we went to change, LOL YIFENG WAS DAMN FUNNYY! and xinni stole her skirt. lol. hilarious man…her play in sports bra thing was funny and of cos jieqi and her chem

then afternoon training, SHIHUI REALLY THOUGHT WE WERE DOING 2.4!!!! she was really mentally prepared. then when we went to do warm ups, she thought we were doing 2.4! funny. she was like “who help us take time arh?” LOL. and then thought usual warm ups, but ended up only 1 round. guess caused it rained? yeahh then they were like “whoa, from 6 rounds to 3 rounds, then now only 1 round arh?” haha. then the usual drills. layup and all. yeahh i guess my footwork did improve.but it’s just hard sometimes. like how i put in the ball and all. oh well, i will train harder and improve even more then did free throw and then went to the gym….but yeah as usual before we went to the gym we were like at the grandstand talking! hahaha “FA-TI-GU!!!” lol. yeahh then at the gym just did abit.not much i guess…cos the rain stopped. but it was fun at the gym!!! jieqi and shihui and their “jian guo ni de mei! wo hai neng ai shui?”  i think they mutated it to “jian guo ni de chou,wo zen neng ai ni?” and yeah i think directed to yifeng. AND I WAS REALLY REALLY SHOCKED THAT SO MANY OF THEM COULD ACTUALLY SING ZHANG DONG LIANG’S ZHI YIN WEI NI!!! i didnt know that they were kinduv cheena.lol. then went back on court. then it rained again…sian lahs. yeah so anyway drizzle only so we continued doing the dunno what play. i heard “sham play”. LOL, but yeah it isnt lahh. so the floor was damn slippery everyone scared fall down.hahaha. then after that we did half-squat. SCARYY KAES. i couldnt tahan 2nd set…i stood up abit i guess. yeah then at first sham said can end but xinni was like “nevermind, do the last set”. so we ended up not doing half squat but play sham’s FUN game. his games are never fun. yeahh relay, sorry for slowing you guys down. paisehs sia. BUT KAIKIAT WAS PRO!!!! yes he was…he really caught up alot. jieqi too!!! so anyways we were supposed to do pushups, but in the end the whole team did together!! yeahh. THE TEAM GUYS AND GIRLS TOGETHER! than the nj thing, lol, our hands too short cant reach.hahas. all for one, and one for all! that’s what bball is about

oh yeah before training, tsktsk marilyn was so DISTRACTED BY 6 letters. LOL. and i wasnt distracted by 8 letters kaee. AND YEAHH RUTH! HE IS SO CUTE LAHH.hahaha…BUT I STILL THINK 8 LETTERS NICER