音乐.唯一的执著

just finished reading chung wayway’s post. [heh. i am so used to calling her that now].
damn sweet.

anyways, cause i dont think i will have timeee to write indiv letters, i am just gonna do shoutouts here. but well, i think that no one is gonna read it. but heckkk.

first, i really want to thank the team. and i am gonna miss the idiot j2s alot alot - jieqilingyifangyuvalerie. every single one of them. though i admit that there was a pt of time i really eeked out cos of trg. feelings.

i cant believe it, but when i think about it, i realised that my happy times in nj were all cos of bball. even if there were sad/pissifying/grr-ed times. i dunno. it just felt like 2G? or even better? 留下来的人往往比走的人痛苦. perhaps it is true bah. you see everyone leave. and you are just stuck there. i dunno. the mg thing nvr happened to me. i guess that’s good? escape?

everytime i see them, it feels weird. like today. when jieqi appeared during trg. it didnt feel right. or when they are not around, it just feels empty. funny.

but anyways, i really regret alot alot of things. only cos i was an idiot. not going for chalet. not warming up the last game. not training my hardest. not going out cos of money. not enjoying training. not mixing ard with them…idiot.

truth is, sometimes i really xian mu marilyn for being able to mix ard with them so well. i dunno, maybe it’s just me. time.

the times sushi-ing, kbox-ing, sleeping, dinner-ing, lunch-ing, gym-ing, shooting, ball-ing, skipping, party-ing, birthday-ing, annoying, toilet-ing, drinking, piano-ing, cai fan-ing, pizza-ing, holiday-ing, malaysia-ing, taupok-ing, sms-ing, training, radio-ing, track-ing, icecream-ing, movie-ing, fried food-ing…missing.

i remember saying that my cds are more impt than them. change it to, they are equally impt. alot had happened. alot alot. from one year ago when we were deciding the exco. the very long interview session. to the time when me and marilyn didnt talk. to the time when everything became fine again. to the time they spent at the chalet. to the time when track started. to the time when the holidays finally came. to the time when there was gym/track/double training. to the time when me and val were happy to go on holiday. to the time when school finally reopened. to the time when we were looking for “someone shorter than jieqi”. to the malaysia times. to the friendly games. to the injury time. to the time when we finally had a team. to the seasons. to the time when everything ended. [to those who doesnt know, basically means the time from TANK to xing guang 4 shao, to lollipop] 1whole year. alot.

really want to thank them alot alot. for the short/sweet smses. for the wunnerful time. for the vry useful/inspirational encouragements and words. for the funniest jokes. for the crap. for the grandstand times. thanks.

jieqi. the shortest and blackest captain. where can i find another one? her black, serious face. it just means stress. but i guess i am gonna miss the stress. the team talks. the ones she is so afraid of [cos she dunno what to say.] some things may seem funny, insignificant. but motivational. some smses may not mean alot to her, but really. they hit me hard. esp. her recent very sentimental one.
thanks, for getting me to talk to marilyn.
thanks, for being understanding.
thanks, for listening to me crap.
thanks, for the very nice smses and team talk.
thanks, for the trainings and effort you put in for us.
thanks, for the many smses you used up.
thanks, for the encouragement you have given.
thanks, for the time.
thanks, for letting me annoy you.
thanks, for the “it’s the memories that count.”
thanks, for the tears.
thanks, for the wunnerful captain you have been.

sorry, for not giving my best during trainings.
sorry, for actually thinking of giving up.
sorry, for not treasuring the time.
sorry, for being a stoopid and idiotic teammate.

“jieqi!”"做什么?”"叫爽的.” [i am so gonna miss this.]

lingyi. though i admit that there were times i was freaked out, annoyed, i know it’s for the team. i took long to understand. far too long. training when she was injured, sick. being high at the grandstand. all just because she wanted to play hard for the team. truth is, i didnt know alot. motivating team talks. the confidence she had in us…
thanks, for the laughter you gave.
thanks, for the many sacrifices you made.
thanks, for training so hard.
thanks, for the barbeque session at your house.
thanks, for showing that nothing can stop you from training.
thanks, for planning the sabo-jieqi sessions.
thanks, for the many smses you sent.
thanks, for planning so much so much.
thanks, for showing me that there is no impossible.
thanks, for being the pia-est vice captain.

sorry, for misunderstanding.
sorry, for not training even though i know i could.
sorry, for not caring.
sorry, for thinking you are weird.
sorry, for being a self-centred person.

fangyu. i remember. there was a post on her blog. me, marilyn, gayle freaked out. i have to say, we grew closer. she boxed out like no one’s business, caught rebounds, learnt centre moves. alot of the time, i didnt understand what she was thinking. even when i didnt know what to do, what we are supposed to do during trainings, she tried to help. in whatever way she could. her smses.
thanks, for the bball blog.
thanks, for the many pictures, for capturing time spent tgthr.
thanks, for studying hard so that you can train.
thanks, for chasing me so hard, getting me to pay basketball fund.
thanks, for the passion burning in you.
thanks, for the many quarrels you had.
thanks, for the effort you put in.
thanks, for the tears.
thanks, for the time out together.
thanks, for the showing you care.
thanks, for showing nothing can bring you down.
thanks, for being fangyu.

sorry, for zoning out sometimes.
sorry, for leaving early when you were down.
sorry, for not trying to understand you better.
sorry, for being insensitive.

valerie. my neutral idiot. she comes up with alot of random stuff that gets herself into trouble. like “no means no problem.” rubbish. i dont know since when i started talking to her alot. i didnt know her last year. cant remember. maybe it was the holidays. i never knew, she missed us so much. the very random things she do. i am gonna miss her. and her stupid egoism.
thanks, for helping me find cute guys.
thanks, for listening to “NOISE”.
thanks, for missing us.
thanks, for running home aftr trg with me.
thanks, for the laughter.
thanks, for your randomness.
thanks, for your paper.
thanks, for counting the attendance.
thanks, for spending the time with us.
thanks, for pia-ing during track.
thanks, for trying to go high during trainings.
thanks, for the scoldings you got.
thanks, for the very no topic smses, predicting trainings.
thanks, for stoning at the grandstand.
thanks, for being a neutral idiot.

sorry, for annoying you.
sorry, for not knowing what to say that time you cried.
sorry, for being a not very neutral neutral idiot.

“CHUNG WAYWAY!”

the j1s have to wait till nxt year.

a new beginning. a new promise. promise to work hard. no matter what.

棒棒堂- 我們之間.
詞:棒棒堂(廖俊傑 - 小傑)

这一段时间 有着什么样的画面
喜怒哀乐全写在日记里面
发现 每一页全都是经典
所有故事都值得纪念
现实的考验 我们说好一起面对
不管多久多远绝对不喊累
期待 彼此更美好的明天
我们说好谁也不放弃谁
手牵着手(连成线 最紧密的圆圈)
肩靠肩(每一刻都好像在身边)
深呼吸 做你最高的堡垒
风吹过的海边
雨水下过的季节
让我好想念
我们之间不会有改变
相同的起点 一瞬间
变成了乐园
我们之间转了一大圈
相同的终点 会发现
所有的心愿 会实现

thanks gals.

THANKS XINYI AND RUTH AND PRISC (:

jiayou njbball.

and and and, I LOVE EELENG

and who is noname?

what about this. i cried again, (ehh no, teared is the correct word.) watching mfbbt.

jiayou lollipop, mo fan 14 bang. all of you are greatt.

jiayou maodi, ahben, hanjiang, huya, liquan, xiaolu (I LOVE YOUR SINGING), weiyu, yeshou, xiaoma 

am sure the 2nd batch will be from there. jiayouuus.

but jiayou to terry, yagao, xiaobin, elmo, duoduo as well.

my predicted list: maodi [wahaha. brothers PK. interesting]. ahben. weiyu. xiaolu [same case as xiaoyu: "bu zhao wo de hua na bbt li shui lai chang ge?" lols]. liquan [XIHA CD :D]. xiaoma.

and jiayouu lollipop. am sure that you pple can make it big (: you alr are (X LALLIPA NA LI PA! <3

wo ai bang bang tang!

wangzi hui you geng duo xi ju fa zhan, xiaoyu hui yue lai yue rocker, ahwei hui pai wu da pian hui you yin zhun, aoquan de breaking hui yue lai yue li hai, xiaojie de chang tiao hui yue lai yue hao, weilian hui zhao dao tempo.

have been neglecting work alot alot alot. well, i guess it’s my own fault. but i sortuv alr gave up on myself? the only consistent thing i do is math. [quotes nic, math is addictive]. and perhaps chem. i am gonna miss mr loh alotts.

lols. xinying told me to post. be honoured and i wanna give you tuitioonnnn! or else i wun see you for a longggiiisshhh time. teach you chem! hahaha!

anyways, wangzi is finally gonna appear on TKA. well, after waiting for so long. well, i guess htat’s gonna be his best birthday present? fine, for his fans. but it’s okay cos i still luv wangzi loads.

wangziii <3 have been gg crazee over lollipop and well, still WAITING PATIENTLY for my TANK and derrick. and of course yoga! he is still as cute as everr. i love xiaoyu too <3 he is damn shuai. but well, poor him. he has to be an ou xiang. wtv it is, jiayou xiaoyu

seasons start on monday. which is also wangzi’s birthday. i think i am gonna miss val (MY NEUTRAL IDIOT) and jieqi and lingyi and fangyu loads.

but isnt that against my character? -zai yi ci mi shi zai hun luan zhong-

and haha, jieqi, WE LOVE YOU TOO lols.

i still want to go k ):
and i still feel deprived. i want to see cute guys!

escaping is the best form of life.

oh wells, this blog most prob will stay stagnant? cos my other one (THE ONE XINYING CANT READ!) will be quite active? i got loads to write there, cos i know no one else would read it

and i just realised, mgeeians think alot. think deeper. or perhaps it is just me, leng, jing. i miss talking to jingning ):

living life like a zombie. this sucks. or maybe it’s just me.

i still want to go back. bu zhi bu jue, you kai shi dao shu le.

SOMEONE GET ME XING GUANG YI BAN AND NewS AND LOLLIPOP AND TANK. it is unfair how xing guang 4 shao had a CONCERT in msia and not in singapore. unfair. and fineee, sann’s jejung is cutee

xiaojingtengggg <33

haha. he changed his singing style

no more the big big actions (his zhao pai leh!)

but its okay cos he still is proo <33

and i want my BBT and TANK in singapore!

yangzongwei is coming nxt week <3 but well dun think i can go ):

wahh! talking about that, grrr i missed xu ren jie and linyoujia and panyuwen in sg.

and they just went to msia.

why not spore?!?!??! i want my xurenjie and linyoujia and panyuwen!

and whoots. i love linyuzhong againns

thanks jingg

i am not gg to emo cos the rest of the world is emoing. i am more pissed than emo. perhaps it’s a continuous thing frm the previous post bah.

why cant the lousiest schl function like the way bbt functions? when not only 6 bang gets a chance. when the smallest improvement is recognised?

isnt bbt a grp as well?

why is it that andy-ge can ti liang weilian and actually encourage him?

why is it that weilian and ahwei’s little improvements here and there can be seen by all 20 bang and the producers? no matter how small the improvement is.

why is it that all their nu li is being recognised?

the zongjian does scold weilian for cha-ing hua. but his little improvements are recognised too. you cant deny that.

and it’s not like the faults of the other didis are all cause of one person.

is it just cause they are in taiwan and we are in sg? or is it just the way the school functions? or is it just the way you think?

dont talk about 6 bang. the other 14 bang are equally bonded. at least it seems so.

or is it cause they are guys?

or perhaps it’s just me.

XINYINGGGGG! JIU WOOOOOO ><

i want CNY again ):

i actually cant wait for papers to start.

i want a k date with xinying and dennis and avan and linus ):

i hate the way i function but apparently that is the only thing i can do now.

perhaps i shdnt be thinking this way.

grrr. xinying is gonna say i san fen zhong re du again. grrarh.

but is there anything i can do abt it?

what leng said is true. but how many of us can really do that?

i could.

urghh.

BBT is still the best. at the very least, they dont close an eye to improvements of all 20 bang.

XING GUANG BANG is still the best. at the very least, they are so close their closeness touches us. at least it used to. even if it was for the short period of time. i dontknow about now…but i trust that at least si shao are still alrights.

and of course there is TANK. at the very least his love for music gets into me…

and at the very least, i am given some space to breathe. [like duh but that is not the point.] or maybe. they are the ones who allow me to breathe.

priorities.

must everyone’s priorities be the same?

apparently no one agrees with the way i prioritise.

it’s only normal for a person to take the easy way out of everything.

human nature.

hypocritical. get a life. wei jun zi. i’d rather be ding ding nao can.

wahhhh! other than liu bang and maodi, i am beginning to think that ah ben looks quite okay! as in he is pretty lahh. HIS FEATURES LIKE GIRL! but nvm! ah bennnn!!!!!

wahhh i want the er bang to have mao di! and duh ah ben will be in larhhh. and i hope there is terrryyyyy! he is damn funnyy! i dont mind xiao lu but he bu hao kan lehh.

AH BEN AND XIAO XUN! why does everyone seem to go with xiao xun?

anyways, CNY was greattt. but i still want a k session with GREEEEENNNNNNN!

SPOONDERMAN! <33

and i still wanna go for DT!